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At long last, all in one place — all of Rory’s books, in all formats, and I PROMISE to keep it updated!

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HARD AS STONE (SoulShares #1)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/6puW301xGCC
ARe: http://ow.ly/FIC6302KMzm
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/rZb1301xJtu
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/CV9n301xGEO

GALE FORCE (SoulShares #2)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/BfqJ301xIpz
ARe: http://ow.ly/rZn3302KMMx
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/HPmO301xJwL
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/qPJs301xItz

DEEP PLUNGE (SoulShares #3)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/vSYn301xI4p
ARe: http://ow.ly/CSAO302KMVZ
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/8CW7301xJyQ
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/OH4q301xI7g

FIRESTORM (SoulShares #4)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/QoMW301xIcV
ARe: http://ow.ly/8OSi302KMYu
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/IaeV301xJC5
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/K3bw301xIhU

BLOWING SMOKE (SoulShares #5)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/hFNQ301xIwo
ARe: http://ow.ly/2MD8302KN0h
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/Wgjo301xJHs
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/7h3n301xIEr

MANTLED IN MIST (SoulShares #6)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/V9fx301xIJI
ARe: http://ow.ly/GUz3302KN4f
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/Sck1301xJKz
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/yGJl301xINr

UNDERTOW (SoulShares #7)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/ZE37302KNmU
ARe: http://ow.ly/TEMO302KNel
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/6MoS302KNu9
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/ufir302KNoM

Coming in 2017: STONE COLD (SoulShares #8) and BACK DOOR INTO PURGATORY (SoulShares #9 and the end of the series)

WOLF, BECOMING (Russian wolf shapeshifter novella)

Amazon (Kindle only): http://ow.ly/US2D301xGzj
ARe: http://ow.ly/UbrY302KNiD
Dreamspinner Press (.epub. .mobi, or .pdf): http://ow.ly/ItKU301xITW

DISCOVERY: QSF’s Second Annual Flash Fiction Contest – something completely different, my contribution to a speculative flash fiction (300 words) anthology

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/p9xr302KO65
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/BnKW302KO7h

FLIGHT: QSF’s Third Annual Flash Fiction Contest – coming Fall of 2016

Coming in August 2016:

A SUMMER’S DAY – an m/m anthology, Shakespeare with a twist – benefitting the It Gets Better project

And, finally —

FREE READ – “Obsidian”http://ow.ly/yBTa301xNqI

Oh, and come find me on Facebook ( https://www.facebook.com/Soulshares/ ) and Twitter (@RoryNi)!

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Good morning-almost-afternoon, Snippetteers! I have a hot-off-the-presses snippet for you this week, just added last night to my WIP, STONE COLD (SoulShares #8). This one had to be seven sentences rather than six — I’m sure you can see why — and just by way of background, a “wellspring” doesn’t have anything to do with actual water, it’s a place where magickal energy wells “up” from the Fae Realm into the human world. They’ve been busting out all over lately, and they’re kind of a pain in the arse for our human and Fae protagonists. “Kevin” is Kevin Almstead, the human MC from book one, HARD AS STONE; the three “figures” are Mac, Lucien, and Rhoann, the triad from UNDERTOW (SoulShares #7).

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A brittle, musical chime filled the air, an instant before three dripping-wet figures appeared, sitting in the middle of a spreading puddle in the heart of the wellspring.

“That wasn’t so — oh, hell, Kevin!”

As deep a funk as he’d been in moments before, Kevin still had a hard time keeping himself from bursting out laughing at the look on Mac’s face. Rhoann had something of an aversion to clothes, and was getting his human partners accustomed to going without in private. And they’d all apparently come from their home away from home at the bottom of the Pool in Central Park, where clothing was less than optional — it was pointless.

“I’m not looking.” Not strictly true, but close enough for jazz.

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And, finally, a couple of links:

Rainbow Snippets on Facebook, your home for LGBTQIA+ goodies — http://www.facebook.com/groups/RainbowSnippets/

And if you’d like to read Mac, Lucien, and Rhoann’s whole story, here’s UNDERTOW (just out this week!!!):

Amazon: http://ow.ly/lndN302xps2
ARe: http://ow.ly/duNl302xpxb

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June is a very special month around here – Pride, and my birthday, and the anniversary of the signing of my very first novel contract! So in honor of all that momentousness (I’m not sure that’s even a word, but if it wasn’t before, it is now, so there), and by way of special welcome to everyone I met, or am going to be meeting, at Twin Cities Pride and CONvergence, I thought I’d gather all the buy links for all the SoulShares novels and my oboroten’ novella together in one place, in all the formats in which they’re available. However you like your m/m romance (provided you like it mythical, legendary, paranormal, and monitor-melting HOT) there’s a link for that. (And scroll all the way to the end for a FREE read, “Obsidian,” originally written for the Facebook MM Romance Group’s Love Is an Open Road project in the summer of 2015 and available on their Web site in .epub, .mobi, and .pdf. For freakin’ free. Go on, grab your copy, I’ll wait right here.

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A lot has been going on over the last few months in my writing world – in particular, I’ve gotten the rights back to the two Gille Dubh novellas I had with Ellora’s Cave, HEART OF THE OAK and TEMPTED FROM THE OAK, and hopefully you’ll be seeing those two (and their younger and as yet unpublished sibling, BOUND IN OAK), sometime in 2017. I have short stories scheduled to come out in a charity Shakespeare m/m romance anthology and a 12 Days of Christmas anthology – check back here for more details on both as I get them. And I’m scheduled to be at CONvergence (Bloomington, Minnesota, June 30-July 1), Gaylaxicon (World LGBT SFF Convention, Minneapolis, Minnesota, October 7-9), and GRL (GayRomLit Retreat, Featured Author, October 20-23, Kansas City, Missouri). C’mon up and see me sometime!

Oh, and if you’re new to my blog, please do subscribe, and come find me on Facebook –
https://www.facebook.com/Soulshares/

And now *drum roll* THE BUY LINKS!

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HARD AS STONE (SoulShares #1)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/6puW301xGCC
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/rZb1301xJtu
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/CV9n301xGEO

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GALE FORCE (SoulShares #2)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/BfqJ301xIpz
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/HPmO301xJwL
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/qPJs301xItz

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DEEP PLUNGE (SoulShares #3)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/vSYn301xI4p
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/8CW7301xJyQ
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/OH4q301xI7g

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FIRESTORM (SoulShares #4)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/QoMW301xIcV
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/IaeV301xJC5
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/K3bw301xIhU

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BLOWING SMOKE (SoulShares #5)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/hFNQ301xIwo
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/Wgjo301xJHs
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/7h3n301xIEr

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MANTLED IN MIST (SoulShares #6)

Amazon (Kindle): http://ow.ly/V9fx301xIJI
Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi or .pdf): http://ow.ly/Sck1301xJKz
Amazon (paperback): http://ow.ly/yGJl301xINr

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UNDERTOW (SoulShares #7)

Amazon (Kindle):  http://ow.ly/qQ0E302oPfL

All Romance eBooks:  http://ow.ly/5IUX302oYBc

Riverdale Avenue Books (.epub, .mobi, or .pdf):  http://riverdaleavebooks.com/books/5267/undertow

Amazon (paperback):  http://ow.ly/Seok302oPlc

Coming in 2017: STONE COLD (SoulShares #8) and BACK DOOR INTO PURGATORY (SoulShares #9 and the end of the series)

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WOLF, BECOMING (Russian wolf shapeshifter novella)

Amazon (Kindle only): http://ow.ly/US2D301xGzj
Dreamspinner Press (.epub. .mobi, or .pdf): http://ow.ly/ItKU301xITW

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FREE READ – “Obsidian” — http://ow.ly/yBTa301xNqI

HAPPY PRIDE!

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It’s here! — it’s release day for

WOLF, BECOMING

You met Volyk and Ilya in “Ilya and the Wolf.” Now hear their whole story.

Volyk – oboroten’, wolf by nature and human by magick…
Ilya Borisovich, the gentle, luckless third son of a modern-day merchant prince…

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Chapter One

Eighteen years ago

All tales have a beginning. Some have more than one.

East of the sun and west of the moon, in the long-ago days when magick still filled the world, there lived in the trackless steppes great beasts with the power to assume the shapes of men at will. Even after the magick withdrew itself to its secret fastnesses, those beasts and their descendants carried the gift of the change in their blood. And the stories were passed down, from one generation to the next, until they became legends. Legends told by living legends, all unknowing….

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Ilya’s touch made Volyk’s heart race. “The skins. Need to come off.” Volyk managed that much, before taking the kiss for which Ilya’s mouth begged.

Ilya laughed, a little unsteadily. Volyk could taste the laughter.

“Help me with them.” Ilya caught at Volyk’s hands.

“I would, if I knew how.”

“Here, I’ll show you.” Ilya guided Volyk’s fingers to the first of a series of small disks and showed him how to slip them through openings in the heavy material.

“Why do you want me to do this?” Volyk bit his lip in concentration, moving from one disk to the next in response to Ilya’s urging. “When it would be so much simpler for you?”

“Because I want to feel your hands on me.”

Something in Ilya’s voice made Volyk look up. And something in the human’s eyes spoke directly to the wolf’s soul.

Mine.

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Amazon: http://ow.ly/YGbZk
ARe: http://ow.ly/YGc7t
Barnes & Noble: http://ow.ly/YGcnd
Kobo: http://ow.ly/YGcqN

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Welcome aboard, Snippetteers and other friends! — today’s snippet is from UNDERTOW, and I thought it might be fun to lighten things up a little today. To set the scene: Rhoann, the half-Royal Water Fae shapeshifter has been pondering Important Questions while swimming around in The Pool in Central Park (which is actually an artificial lake up in the northwest corner of the park) when Fiachra (the Fae MC from MANTLED IN MIST, SoulShares #6) suddenly appears out of nowhere at the bottom of the Pool. Rhoann feels sort of obligated to go fetch him up to shore, where the following exchange ensues:

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“What were you doing at the bottom of the Pool?” He kept his tone light, non-accusatory, as it was a possibility the other Fae had not intended to intrude.

A’buil gnas le lom ar-gúl.” Fiachra rubbed his throat, as if doing so could ease his hoarseness.

“I have no interest in fornicating with you, whether backwards or any other way –”

“Conall was right, you’re as literal-minded as a unicorn.”

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And a few links for you —

Rainbow Snippets on Facebook (for more LGBTQIA goodies):

And pre-order links for WOLF, BECOMING (releasing on February 24 — stop back here for the festivities on Wednesday!)

Amazon: http://ow.ly/YyBt4
Dreamspinner: http://ow.ly/YyBz9
ARe: http://ow.ly/YyBK4

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The Fae of the SoulShares would love to heat up your Valentine’s Day!

Start off with HARD AS STONE (Tiernan and Kevin), at Amazon (http://ow.ly/YidsD), Barnes & Noble (http://ow.ly/Yidzd), Kobo (http://ow.ly/YidF0), All Romance eBooks (http://ow.ly/YidPb), and Riverdale Avenue Books (http://ow.ly/YidZe)

and then move on to

GALE FORCE (Conall and Josh)
DEEP PLUNGE (Lochlann and Garrett)
FIRESTORM (Cuinn and Rian)
BLOWING SMOKE (Lasair and Bryce)
MANTLED IN MIST (Fiachra and Peri)

And while you’re shopping, don’t forget to pre-order WOLF, BECOMING, my Russian shape-shifter novella from Dreamspinner Press – available February 24, and on 25 percent off sale at Dreamspinner through February 15!

Amazon (http://ow.ly/Yi87B), Barnes & Noble (http://ow.ly/YieAl), Kobo (http://ow.ly/YievT), All Romance eBooks (http://ow.ly/YidSo), and Dreamspinner Press (http://ow.ly/YieDB)

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Happy New Year — to friends, family, readers, Snippetteers, and you random folks who trip over my blog in the course of Google searches for “hot male-on-male tree action”! (Don’t worry, I don’t judge…) This week’s Snippet is from FIRESTORM, book four of the SoulShares; next week will be BLOWING SMOKE (SoulShares #5), and with any luck at all, by the week after that, MANTLED IN MIST will be out and you’ll be getting one of the first peeks!

Had to go with seven sentences for this one — I hope you’ll forgive me! (The first speaker is Cuinn, who has spent the first three books being the quintessential bad boy, but is now trying to come to grips with the fact that he’s found his SoulShare — who’s a harder case than Cuinn ever dreamed of being.

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“You don’t need wonder?”

Rian started to shake his head, but was stopped, dead, by a kiss. Not one like last night’s, not the first move of a duel. A gentle, lips-parted kiss, an exchange of breath. Closed eyes, the soft touch of a tongue. A shiver, arrowing down his spine.

“You’re so fucking wrong,” Cuinn whispered, before taking Rian’s mouth for fair.

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And a couple of links:

Want to go back to the Rainbow Snippets group and find a whole bunch more other wonderful LGBT snippets? Go here: http://ow.ly/WxHTk

Want to check out more of FIRESTORM? Go here: http://ow.ly/WxHXi

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As part of the run-up to the release of MANTLED IN MIST (SoulShares #6) in January, each of my weekly snippets until then is coming from a different SoulShares book. This week, we’re on number two. GALE FORCE is the story of Conall Dary, the most powerful Fae mage born in the last two thousand or so years, and Josh LaFontaine, the owner of Raging Art-On Tattoo and Piercing Parlor, up the stairs from Purgatory. (Josh and Conall, incidentally, are in the running for Best Established Couple in this year’s Goodreads M/M Romance Group Member’s Choice Awards!) In this Snippet, Josh and Conall are discovering that they can communicate in their dreams. (Sorry, it’s seven sentences, but I couldn’t really lop off either end…)

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“Damn.” The word was half a groan. “The dreams are good — hell, the dreams are amazing, I had a dream after the shower that was almost as hot as the shower — but it’s not the same as having you, it can’t be.” The sound of flesh on flesh, a stroking hand, carried clearly through the mist.

“I wish we could have finished the dream,” Conall murmured. “I wanted to feel you inside me. I still do.”

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If you’re intrigued, all the SoulShares are 30 percent off on the Riverdale Avenue Books Web site through January 2, with the code SECRETSANTA30 — http://ow.ly/W7wqs

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And come check out the whole group, at https://www.facebook.com/groups/RainbowSnippets/ — there’s something there for every taste on the LGBTQ+ rainbow!

QueerSciFi Holiday Blog Hop

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QueerSciFi is running our first ever holiday blog hop. Our members will be sharing a number of our great holiday-themed titles on their blogs – it’s a great way to find speculative-fiction themed LGBT holiday books! We’ve included buy links for each of the books below – books are listed in alphabetical order by title. Happy Holidays!


candleinthedarkCandle in the Dark Anthology
Author: Various
Price: $5.00 eBook / $10.00 Paperback

Summary: In almost all traditions, winter has been a time to huddle around the fire and be thankful for those the fire is shared with. The holidays grew out of a need to celebrate that time, from Christmas to Chanukah to Solstice. The longest night of the year has always held some special mystery, and we’re proud to present you with several stories of how those mysteries bear fruit. In the first story, Patrick receives a mysterious invitation to dine at the most exclusive restaurant for men. His server, Gio, encourages him to Savor the experience…

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER | AMAZON | ALL ROMANCE


christmascactusforthegeneralA Christmas Cactus for the General
Author: Angel Martinez
Price: $3.99 eBook

Summary: Exiled to Earth for perhaps the worst failure in Irasolan history, General Teer must assimilate or die. Earth is too warm, too wet, too foreign, but he does the best he can even though human males are loud, childish louts whom he can’t imitate successfully. When a grieving seaplane pilot strikes up a strange and uneasy friendship with him, he finds he may have been too quick to judge human males. They are strange to look at, but perhaps not as unbearable as he thought.

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER | AMAZON | ALL ROMANCE | APPLE | KOBO


darkestmidnightindecemberThe Darkest Midnight in December
Author: Jana Denardo
Price: $3.99 eBook

Summary: The year is 1930, and something is hunting infants and young couples in Economy Village, PA. When a local priest begins to suspect a demon may be the culprit, the sheriff calls in a team of Soldiers of the Sun. Caleb, Agni, Temple, and Li specialize in demon hunting, but they can’t rule out an old religious sect as the true culprit. Prejudice, distraught parents, and angry townspeople don’t make the team’s job any easier. And if something goes wrong, their own their own, because by the time their backup arrives, it will be too late.

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER | AMAZON | ALL ROMANCE EBOOKS


FruitcakesFruitcakes
Author: Renee George
Price: $1.99 eBook

Summary: Losing your boyfriend because you see monsters…not good. Getting locked up in the local mental hospital because you accused your boss of being an actual ogre…also not good. Falling for your crazy roommate, who thinks he’s one of Santa’s elves…so not good! Or is it? Come along for a sexy ride as Donner and Bran try to escape the locked ward before Christmas Eve so Bran doesn’t lose the only job important to him. USA Today Bestselling author Renee George pens a laugh-out-loud MM Fairytale Christmas…Nuts included!

Buy Links:

AMAZON | BARNES & NOBLE | APPLE | KOBO


holidaylightsHoliday Lights
Author: Jana Denardo
Price: Free

Summary: Aaron asks Rhys for some help with putting up the tree and finalizing their holiday plans, even though he knows Rhys will have something to say about all of Aaron’s geeky ornaments. Rhys puts his own special touches on the holiday decorating as only a fae could.

Buy Links:

LIVE JOURNAL


ilyaandthewolfIlya and the Wolf
Author: Rory Ni Coileain
Price: $1.99 eBook

Summary: Ilya, the youngest son of a Moscow oligarch, is so deep in the closet he’d find Narnia if that weren’t a decadent Western story. On Christmas Eve, his brothers lure him into the forest, intending to murder him and erase the shame he inflicts on their family by existing. However, the attempt is interrupted by Volyk, a wolf who carries the blood of the ancient oboroten’ —shapeshifters. Ilya never imagined a Christmas gift like the handsome wolf, but accepting what Volyk offers will have consequences that change both of their lives forever.

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER | AMAZON | BARNES & NOBLE


Lion's HeroLion’s Hero
Author: Alexis Woods
Price: $.99 eBook

Summary: Eight nights to fall in love.

Ari has a mission: meet and fall in love with a man chosen for him by God. The catch: he only has eight nights to complete it—the eight nights of Chanukah

Gabriel has a test of faith. Reaching out to a young man, he finds himself confronted with the unbelievable. Believe, and the Festival of Lights may herald a miracle.

Buy Links:

AMAZON | ALL ROMANCE | BARNES & NOBLE


lovingblitzLoving Blitz
Author: Charlie Cochet
Price: $3.99 eBook

Summary: From North Pole City to Winter Wonderland, preparations are underway after a royal announcement sweeps everyone into a frenzy of festivity. At the heart of the celebration are the city’s most beloved elf pilots, the Rein Dears. Once the Big Flight is behind them, the pilots prepare for the royal event. Assigned a special task of finding an Elska rose, Cupid and Blitzen are unaware of how their friendship is about to change forever.

Yet not all that glitters is gold. The sweet, angelic Cupid hides a dark secret, one that threatens to destroy his Rein Dear status, his friends, and the elf who’s captured his heart. It’s up to Blitzen to help Cupid see the light in the darkness and show him that together they can mend broken hearts.

Buy Links:

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The Magic of ChristmasThe Magic of Christmas
Author: Pelaam
Price: $2.99 eBook

Summary: Jared joins his four best friends on an early Christmas holiday in a beautiful winter wonderland. He’s been in love with the talented and extroverted Casey for years, but lacked the courage to say anything. Casey loves Jared, but despite his gregarious exterior, inside lurks someone shy and insecure and so he’s never spoken up. Both men are about to experience real Christmas magic.

Buy Links:

MLR BOOKS | AMAZON | BARNES & NOBLE | APPLE | KOBO


nicolasNicolas
Author: Dianne Hartsock
Price: $6.99 eBook / $14.99 Paperback

Summary: Betrayed by a lover, Jamie rents an isolated cabin on Lake Huron, wanting only to be left alone. Instead, he is pulled from his solitary existence as an artist and tumbles headlong into the legend of Saint Nicolas. As a young man, Nicolas accidentally killed a man intent on murdering three children, only to have the man’s malicious spirit rise up against him. Fleeing through the centuries from the Krampus, the evil troll-like creature that dogs his steps, Nico finds refuge with the young artist who takes him into his home and bed. But Jamie has questions. Who is Nicolas, and why does the Krampus want to destroy him?

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER EBOOK | PUBLISHER PAPERBACK


No One to Greet the Season
Author: Elizabeth Barrette
Price: Free (poem)

Summary: Victor Frankenstein and Igor have a queerplatonic relationship and a constructed son. Igor’s deformed back causes him more trouble in cold weather, which makes Christmas more of a challenge. Victor helps him through it. Gothic fluff, holiday hurt/comfort.

Buy Links:

LIVE JOURNAL


scrudgeandbarleyScrudge & Barley, Inc
Author: John Inman
Price: $6.99 eBook / $14.99 Paperback

Summary: A classic tale takes off in sexy new directions! Poor Mr. Dickens must be twirling in his grave. When E.B. Scrudge, putz extraordinaire and all-around numbnuts, is visited by his dead ex on Christmas Eve, he can’t imagine how his life could sink any lower. But the three ghostly spirits that come along after are even worse! Good lord, a dyke, a drag queen, and rounding out the trio, a big, hunky bear with nipple rings and a butt plug! What’s next? What’s next is a good deal of soul-searching and some hard lessons learned with a dash of redemption thrown in for good measure.

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER EBOOK | PUBLISHER PAPERBACK
ALL ROMANCE EBOOKS


silversteelSilver/Steel
Author: Belinda McBride
Price: $6.99 eBook

Summary: When dream hunter Dylan Ryve spots a beautiful shapeshifter raising hell in a bar, he knows he wants the wild young man. But Travis Feris is more to Dylan than a few hot minutes outside in the snow; he’s the assassin’s ticket into the magical town of Arcada. He didn’t plan to rescue the kid, but when he found the shifter being attacked, the opportunity to play hero was too good to pass up. Through the solitude of a long winter night, Dylan walks in Travis’s fevered dreams, learning about Arcada and the pack, and showing the shifter the man he’d been so very long ago.

Buy Links:

AMAZON | ALL ROMANCE EBOOKS


Spindrift GiftsSpindrift Gifts
Author: Aidee Ladnier
Price: $TBD

Summary: Scars and a tattoo may be the only physical reminders from his years as a slave, but when Jimenez suffers a setback in his medical treatment, the only option is a therapy that will wipe away his all memories of the past including his time with Teo. Teo, torn between supporting his lover’s decisions and the good intentions of his family, sets out to teach Jimenez about Spindrift Gifts and how memories are celebrated on Celos even when they are painful. Can Teo and Jimenez weather the storm to find their happily-ever-after on Celos?

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER | APPLE

| KOBO

| ALL ROMANCE EBOOKS


temptedfromtheoakTempted from the Oak
Author: Rory Ni Coileain
Price: $5.60 eBook

Summary: With his blue eyes and heart-melting smile, Gavin could have been made-to-order to entice Tearlach, a lonely tree spirit. But the human is the one who’s been enticed—stolen from snow-buried Minneapolis to the Scottish Highlands by Tearlach’s darag, the ancient oak tree of which he is the living spirit. Tearlach is trapped within the darag by the terrible memory of his own death—hundreds, maybe thousands of years ago, but as recent to him as his last heartbeat. And if desire for the handsome human fails to tempt him out, spirit and oak are both doomed.

Buy Links:

PUBLISHER | AMAZON | BARNES & NOBLE


And, as an extra Christmas treat, a “blast from the past” — an original Christmas story with Darach and Trevor, of Heart of the Oak. Enjoy — and may you and yours have a blessed holiday season!

https://rorynicoileain.com/2013/12/23/christmas-eve-on-the-isle-of-skye/

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What a long, strange ride it’s been. And wonderful, sometimes. The later bits more so than the earlier, but that’s kind of how it is when you don’t figure out an essential part of who you are until you’re fifty-two years and some-odd months old.

The author in me wants to tell this story ‘properly’ – spin it out, keep you in suspense, scatter a few red herrings here and there, and (me being a romance author and all) wrap it up in a nice neat Happily Ever After. But this isn’t one of my stories, and the purpose of National Coming Out Day isn’t to win a Pulitzer or a RITA. I’m writing to shed my secrets, claim my life. And maybe shed a little light on the path for the next people to walk it.

I’ve always known in my heart that I live somewhere “on the rainbow”. I was just never sure where. I only knew that I didn’t fit in with any group of people I’d ever met or heard enough about to understand. And I finally got tired of the not knowing, and the not fitting in, so about a year ago, I found an amazing therapist and started a process of actively questioning and exploring my sexual identity. Both the orientation and gender dimensions.

I started out thinking I might be genderfluid, or agender, or possibly even transmasculine – I’ve always hated my body, and I’ve always hated female stereotypes. But that wasn’t quite it. I hated being in a female body, but I didn’t want to be male – as I told a panel at Rainbow Con, about the only time I really wish I’d been born with a penis is when I sit down to pee and my iPhone always falls out of my back pocket. *winks* (And really, that wasn’t even a problem until I sized up to an iPhone 5s…) And it turned out, my hostility to my femaleness was something else entirely – I’ll get there in a few paragraphs, I promise.

Then came the breakthrough. The Moment. A Facebook moment, actually. A friend liked a post, a post it normally wouldn’t have occurred to me to do more than glance at (information overload being a Very Real Thing), because hey, it couldn’t possibly be me, right?

But it WAS me. A young woman was writing about her experience of asexuality. And every word made me want to jump up out of my chair and do the Rocky Balboa arms-pumping-the-air thing.

I’d finally found me.

This is who I am. I’m asexual – I don’t feel sexual attraction to other people. Other kinds of attraction, yes, but not sexual.

I’m not celibate – granted, a lot of vocabulary in the field of human sexuality is fluid right now, words have a tendency to change meanings according to who’s using them and in what context, but to me, celibacy is a choice to forego something you actually want or value. A celibate person is still heterosexual or homosexual or bisexual or wherever along the sexual axis of the spectrum they might find themselves, they’ve just chosen not to act on their attractions, for whatever reason.

And I might be graysexual (intermittent or sporadic sexual attraction), maybe even demisexual (capable of sexual attraction in the context of an intense emotional relationship) – I’ve never been in the kind of relationship that would let me explore my sexuality safely with another person in a way that would let me find out. But for now, where I’m at, asexual is pretty much perfectly descriptive. The picture at the top of this post is a tattoo I got at Rainbow Con back in July – asexual people (aces) often make use of playing card Aces as symbols, and graysexuals and demisexuals often use the Ace of Diamonds in particular. (“Often”, not “always” – symbolism’s a fluid thing too…) (This is also what happens when I try to take a picture of my own ankle with my phone…)

And frankly, I’m not overly concerned at this point about finding the exactly right sub-label. Or about putting myself in a box. That’s not what I’m trying to do, when I describe myself as asexual. I’m finding a language to speak about my life, and people to speak it with. I’m finding out, for the first time in my life, that I’m not actually fundamentally broken. That there are other people out there like me, and that it’s okay to be the way I am.

This is a fairly new thing for me. I spent most of my life convinced that I was defective. Not quite human. Because everybody was sexual – all the good people were, of course, heterosexual, but even the homosexuals still had sex with somebody. The real fate worse than death was being frigid. If you were raised the way I was, being frigid meant you were choosing to refuse to give your man what he had a right to expect, and that you would probably end up divorced and alone; if you were the feminist I later became, being frigid meant rejecting the delightful gift that was your own sexuality.

I tried to hide, for a very long time, without using that horrible word “frigid” (even though I did end up divorced and alone, twice, after sexless marriages – which were by popular definition “bad” marriages, so the last thing in the world I could do was admit that I liked them that way).

And here, it turns out, is why I hated my body. Men kept finding it attractive – and I, with my entire sense of self-worth being pegged to keeping my promises and honoring my obligations, firmly believed that I was obligated to go along with whatever their attraction prompted them to do, even though as an asexual person I totally didn’t want it. I ended up in two marriages that were very bad ideas that way; in between marriages, I stumbled through attempted relationships in which one or the other of us (usually him) always gave up after a few dates because there was no “spark,” no “chemistry.” Even if we could spend a whole lazy Sunday afternoon strolling hand in hand through an enormous flea market, and stay up till three in the morning talking about the movie we’d just seen… even I thought a “real” relationship had to be more than that, and if there wasn’t more than that, well, it just wasn’t going to work.

And I hated places like Victoria’s Secret, with their “every woman is sexy!” ethos and their underlying assumption that of course every normal human woman wanted to be sexy, so of course I wasn’t normal. I panicked every time I heard “love your curves!” – dammit, I thought I was safe, being fat. But nope, now there’s a spotlight on me. “Here she is, boys! – come and get her! Just look at all that sexy just waiting to be loved up! Even sexier than the skinny girls!” (For the record, I’ve always considered “love your curves” to be a wonderful, empowering thing. For everyone but me. I figured it was just part of how broken I was, that I had to keep hating on myself for a reason that would have been totally wrong to apply to any other woman.)

This is starting to change. (Finally!) My therapist is amazing. Beyond amazing. She’s helped me through the scariest part – getting rid of my preconceptions about asexuality. Especially the whole “frigid” thing. I’m not frigid. Hell no – just read any of my books! I don’t have to hate my body any more, because guess what? – even if it IS looking “eminently edible” to some folks, that creates no obligation on my part. And Victoria’s Secret is just overgeneralizing. (Still working on internalizing both of those, I admit. But progress is being made!)

I did think it was odd, at first, being an asexual author of m/m erotic romance. But it isn’t, really. For one thing, we all write about things we don’t know first hand, to some extent. Black Beauty was a wonderful book, but I strongly suspect it wasn’t written by a horse. And I have a strong libido, even though it doesn’t express as attraction to other people. And I truly am “in love with love” – to me, the best stories are the ones about two (or more) people who take most of a book to figure out they can’t live without each other. My romance is heavily fantasy-flavored, and who knows, maybe someday I’ll be writing fantasy that’s heavily romance-flavored… but there’s no sign over the romance clubhouse door that says “No Aces Allowed”.

And m/m is perfect for me, too. The idea of most romance is to get your reader to identify with one of your protagonists. Me, I’m more comfortable reading or watching erotica in which I don’t identify with anyone involved. If I start identifying with someone in the scene, I push back. (Yes, it’s a paradox. Ain’t life fun?) Writing m/m lets me explore all the intensity, all the passion, all the sensuality, in a way I can truly enjoy, without putting up any barriers.

And on a slightly related note, I think I finally understand why I’ve always preferred hanging out with gay men, rather than straight men. When I’m with gay men, I absolutely don’t have to worry about them picking up on some mysterious and unintentional “attractive” thing I might say or do and having any expectations of me. I’m not making them any promises, or at least not any promises they have any interest in me keeping! I can finally just be myself, safely. I sometimes think that my ideal relationship at this point in my life would be a poly relationship with two uninhibited gay men who adore me and don’t mind having an audience in the bedroom. If anyone knows how to get in contact with Dirk Caber and Jesse Jackman…. *happy sigh* *did I mention I’m also musicosexual?* Or, failing that, I’ll just sigh happily over Brock O’Hurn from a safe distance. (Celebrity crushes can be wonderful things… they don’t have to be sexy, and they can be perfectly safe. And in case anyone’s wondering, yes, I do truly enjoy all the luscious man-candy pictures that turn up on my news feed. I may not be daydreaming about what I personally would love to do in bed with all that male beauty, but believe me, I can come up with plenty of other daydream fodder!)

Next on my agenda? – (1) really internalizing my intellectual understanding that other people’s sexual attraction to me, or lack thereof, is their own bidness, and not any obligation on my part — it’s perfectly okay to say “nope, not interested”. (2) starting to figure out what I actually want out of a relationship (because I’m sure I do want one), and (3) starting to learn how to ask for whatever (2) is. I might be graysexual – I’ve felt sexual attraction to people before, usually a passing thing. Or I might be demisexual, and need to be in an intense emotional relationship with someone before I start feeling sexual attraction. I don’t know. It’s been over 20 years since I’ve had any chance to find out for sure. But I do know I’m going to have to figure out how to start talking about possibilities, if I’m ever going to find anyone willing to help me explore them.

Maybe some gedankenexperiments would help, a little constructive daydreaming with some of that daydream fodder. Maybe Brock. *grins* Hard to believe it’s taken me this long to realize that it’s okay for me to daydream about finding ways to be happy with someone that don’t involve immediate chemistry and sexual yearnings, but hey, better late than never! It feels deliciously self-indulgent, contemplating the prospect of figuring out what my thought experiment and I could say to one another, or do with each other, that might stand a chance of someday, down the road as far as I want it to be, carbonating my hormones…. or of making me happy even if said hormones remain UNcarbonated.

I finally understand now, fifty-three years down my life’s road, that uncarbonated would be perfectly fine. It’s okay for me to want to be happy, and not need for that happiness to have a sexual dimension.

I’m not broken after all. I’m just a different kind of whole.